There is a new baby!!

Megan had her baby!!! And guess what? She is absolutely gorgeous! I cannot wait to meet you Eliana. Also Megan I am so jealous; I hope I look a pretty as you do after labor.

The stats:

Who Eliana Marie Wells
What 6 lbs. 11 oz., 19 inches
Where Provo
When 3:37 PM
Why Because Megan was pregnant, duh!

Eli, we all love you and hope to meet you soon!

It is time for a happier leaf.

So I realize that ll of my posts up until now have been depressing and sad, as well as full of hate. So ignore those. For now I have decided I am going to be happy if it kills me. I have so much going for me it is ridiculous. I am going to get into Grad School, I have tons of friends, I have a pseudo niece, I am pretty, and generally likable. I am basically amazing, heck I am a daughter of God.

But Yes I am going to be happier from now on. So I encourage all to come and check out this blog every once in a while to catch up on my life.

Have a wonderful day!

Love,
Jez

Why?

I have the sense of dread. I watch people move past and all I feel is negative towards them. I can not help but think that I want to be as far away from them as possible. When people are talking I cannot wait for them to stop. I am alone. I have no one. All the people I know have moved on, never to be seen again. People are mad at me for no reason. I have no idea why. I just want to curl up into a ball and cry. I want someone to hold me, but there is no one. I can't feel Him anymore. There is a weight that will not lift from my shoulders. I don't know why. That is what is most confusing. I don't know why? I just feel this hatred for those around me and feel like balling at the drop of a hat. I can't take it anymore. I just want it to end. I want to be happy again. God, please come.