It is all fun and games until someone gets hit in the head with a shoe

So work is getting stressful. It feels like my boss never give positive comments to anyone and it is really getting all of the staffs' morale down. We also are very stressed out do to the environment on the unit. Almost none of the kids follow directions. The last few days we have had kids in and out of seclusions all day. We have two 1:1s and one 2:1. It is getting ridiculous. The other kids get no attention because we just don't have the staff to do things. It is getting harder and harder to feel excited about going to work. If my boss walks on the unit all of us hold our breaths until he is gone. I always feel like I am doing something wrong thanks to one of the nurses. But whatever, a job is a job. I am happy to have one.

We will see what happens with Grad School. I have to wait until the end of April to know anything. Part of me does not want to go yet. I want to work longer. But the longer I wait the harder it will be.

I feel as though I have no life outside of work. I spend time with my friends on my days off, but rarely do I do more than sleep and work on the days that I have to go in. I am seriously depressed some days. After Brian screwed everything up I just can't seem to feel comfortable in my own skin. I don't know how I can start trusting people again.

Well like I said. It is all fun and games until someone gets hit in the head with a shoe. I took down three kids today. One of them hit me in the head with a shoe. So there you have it.